I Jumped Ship, So Can You... It'll Only Cost You $19.95 and A Can Of Mountain Dew

It's been a while since I last updated this, exactly 231 days. So much has changed in my life. I am now living in a new city and working a new job. This past year has been nothing short of an emotional roller coaster. I have grown and learned so much during this time, and I am excited to share my journey with you all again.

I've avoided writing today's blog post because it deals with a sensitive personal experience. If you've read any of my other entries, you know that I don't shy away from discussing my battles with anxiety and depression, even though doing so is difficult, because I think it's crucial to end the taboo surrounding mental illness.

My goal in telling these anecdotes is to encourage others to get help and to show them that they are not alone in their pursuit of wholeness and acceptance of who they are. Time to start a conversation that can make a real difference in people's lives by shedding light on the darkness of my past year.

Today's topic is about doing what's right for you even though, at the time, it feels like the most damaging and destructive thing you can do to yourself. I'm referring to the painful process of letting go of someone you loved. It was the person I planned to spend the rest of my life with, the one who promised to stick by me forever and always. One of the most excruciating things I've ever gone through, and still going through, is letting go.

My hesitation in taking the plunge only made matters worse. Despite the initial heartache, I've learned that letting go is sometimes the best thing that could have happened to me mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually. My anxiety and depression finally overcame me at the start of 2022 after I learned that my spouse had been chronically unfaithful.

Every morning, I had to force myself to get out of bed. I felt like I was sinking beneath the waves of my own negative emotions. It seemed like an uphill battle every day, and I often wondered if the clouds of despair would ever part.

I did the one thing that if in that situation, nobody should ever do... I stayed. I compromised my happiness and self-worth when I held onto that toxic relationship with someone who did not value me. I convinced myself that things would improve and that I could change or fix them. But deep down, I knew that I deserved better. It took me a long time to gather the strength to let go and prioritize my well-being over the fear of being alone. It was a difficult decision that ultimately led me to a place of healing and self-discovery.

I've learned that letting go of things we no longer need makes room for better things to come into our lives. We allow ourselves to mend, develop, and discover contentment there. Putting an end to clinging to the past is a step toward embracing the present and realizing our full potential.